23rd October 2005

I am against some odds, with an irrational fear nagging away at the back of mind, there are endless hours of work, an uncertain future, plus no exercise with plenty of gluttony instead.

You hope there could be a plan for everything, even a plan to do something if some plan did not work. Then there is the past that you loved and now rue leaving behind, and the present that overwhelms. All 3 time-linear realities are either impractical or undesirable. And then something tells you that every step you took, are taking and will take has been bringing you a step closer to your ultimate reality. Those ambitions you ever harboured, those dreams you ever had, that closeness you ever felt with someone, all of these things that make up your ultimate truth, your ultimate reality...you must believe that to reach it, it will take one step at a time.