20th July 2004

Diplomacy and tact is important in thought, speech and action not just for the sake of being non-controversial and safe. In terms of getting your work done, no one feels guilty, but empowered. In terms of conserving energy, diplomacy hardly involves shouting and screaming, and so we save a lot of energy. In terms of maintaining relationships, if spoken with love, no one feels alienated and hurt. So get your work done, conserve your energy (and everyone else's) and maintain your relationships.

To the one who seems to be troubling me: I must understand that I and my work is probably not at the centre of your universe. But I must make you realise that the work I am doing is not mine, but also yours, and is divine. Therefore, no matter how small or large your universe is, you have underestimated your significance and the value of this work. I will not get upset because I don't doubt your ability. It is only a lack of motivation and self-belief that is drawing you away from me and our work. I will do whatever it takes in my capacity to make you believe in yourself again. With love, diplomacy and humble, silent prayer.

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5th July 2004

I spent 45 minutes writing what you were supposed to read today. It was some unbelieveable philosophy about the nature of free will, Divine will, various stages and what surrender really means. Not that it was really unbelievable. In my head, I'm really clear about it. But maybe the way I wrote, it wasn't really exciting to read. And now, in retrospect, I remembered how I had for a split second, prayed for a concise Outpour today. But along the way, I forgot. Decided to clean my keyboard, and pressed the refresh button, and that was it. Call it cheeky Divine intervention, because the reader's interests are the Lord's priority. More than the writer's. And so what can I write now? I have two lines left. I promised someone, while cribbing like a crab about my bad luck that I will be concise this time, after this rude 'refresh page' shock. Ten lines to be exact. I have one more left. In my broswer at least. Ok, be happy and smile, smile, smile, smile....

Actually it was 5 lines I promised. But what the heck. My keyboard feels amazing. That's my excuse.

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27th June 2004

Dear Friend,

I shouldn't be the last person you worry about
I shouldn't be on your worry list at all

My ENERGY is infinite, and no one can remind me of this except ME

Of course, my dear friend, you make this energy sweeter

I hope to be the first person you think about
I don't want to miss out if you need me

My LOVE is infinite, and no one can remind me of this except ME

Of course, my dear friend, sharing it with you makes it worth its while

I can be anything you want me to be
Your son, brother, father, guru or disciple

My ROLES and RESPONSIBILITIES are infinite, and no one can remind me of this except ME

Of course, my dear friend, YOU, ME or I are WE...

YOU, ME or I are ONE.

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18th June 2004

Every blue moon, we receive an "electric" shock that tries to rock our belief systems and our immense faith. This means we cannot take our strong faith for granted. We must also understand the concept of faith (and redefine it if we haven't already). We cannot take our faith for granted because, although it has made us what we are today, how grateful have we been? How proud have we been? How readily have we declared ourselves to be faithful? Here's the definition bit: Faith is something that can lead to experiences that reinforce it further. It cannot be rationalised all the time.

We have all experienced wonders, miracles and magical moments in our lives, but have been afraid to attribute them to our strong faith and complete surrender to God. Every blue moon, that's what the "electric" shock is for. To make us realise, so that we are proud to be faithful.

Let those who like to administer this shock do their job. YOU are not a bad, bad, child. You are the select, lucky few. And why would you want to be anyone else?

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9th June 2004

I am reminded of how I have been handling myself and my relationships, dwelling on the positive while trying to suss out which one was the sour grape story. There may be countless contradictions, definitions, perspectives and states of mind but all of them together created the perfect balance for equanimity. Now that you have found this perfect happiness, you can actually give something for nothing. Those still in the search, being the gentle patient souls I'm sure you all are, think of humanity as one, in which you have a majority stake. If you don't get something you prayed for now, pray for others with similar wishes to get them. And the next time you come across a brightly-lit bubble of pink dancing in the sunshine, don't be surprised it was your prayer answered. Eventually, you will no longer be surprised because you are a source of joy with every single breath you take. You already have everything, so you can only give, give and give.

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